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I know that to many I am seen as this "smart, lucky kid." But the truth is, that's not always me. When I say that I mean, I'm not this naturally smart genius that people think I am. Here's how I can explain it. My life started out as this complete entire negative vibe. All because of the hatred that my "family" had for my mother. Not because she is this horrible person, but because she was so amazingly perfect. In my family for some reason everything is about competition. When my dad married my mom my uncles and aunts all felt this rage for my mother for being a successful women, who by the way was only trying to start this happy family. They began to hate her even more after she showed how loving she was. How this relates to me is, ever since I was born their has been this hidden cult in my family that hates me for being the son to my mother. I have worked so hard to be successful just to protect my mother. No matter our situation all I care about is taking care of my mother and achieving my dream. It's not to be a lawyer, this scientist or doctor, but to be a star. Truth is, I was extremely affected by the situation. Their is more in essance that I just can't speak about. My life started out wrong but yet correct. I'll explain that as we get more into it. Honestly, at the age of only eleven I was about quite ready to end my life. And I tried, but as I countinued to do so, something or some beautiful voice always told me that things were going to get better. So I listened. I'm sixteen now and about to be seventeen and I can already tell you about all of my memories. Like when I would cry to myslef or when I was sent into a menatl institution for three days. (Not for being crazy, but for emotional reasons). My life is a roller coaster and I wish I could say it all, but life just isn't ready for it yet. I will one day. I just wish that people could know how I really am. Especially the students from school. The truth is, Im an actor, dancer, and a part-time rapper. People just don't know that yet. That is something that I use to keep away from life. I never wanted to dedicate my whole life to school. It was just that my family became "extremely" poor. Our family was supposed to get evicted from our home on christmas night. Luckily God has always been with us. Now don't get me wrong. Im not this crazy "negative" person. I feel that I am actually one of the most naturally happy people in the world. It was just that I had to go through certain situations to learn and grow. And that was completely ok. When I say that my life started out correct, it's because I know that my experiences were all done to help me grow. Honestly without them I would not be able to even socialize with someone without sweating. I look foward now. I'm auditioning and rocking my own world!
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